the times are moving
the wheel has shifted from the cart
the beast from its slave
the slave away from his master

the times they have changed
we stay put
and still move away
drawn by the winds of time

the times have altered
the spirits of the ghosts
they no longer haunt
but only dismay

the times have come
and they are here to stay
killing our youth
and haunting our age.

This I wrote for them on their 53rd anniversary

A thousand miles we have passed along
And a million footsteps behind
Each a journey of unending emotions,
Some-where I walked along with you,
A few-few steps behind;

All in all
Those have been lovely days
Of long afternoons
And those of them
which saw cold nights
Were always spent in the warmth
Found from the embrace of my lover you;

You have been there
And I with you
As we both have walked ahead-
Arm in arm,
step by step,
We have come this far
And now I wish
Not only for afternoons-warm
But for a thousand million cold nights
To be spent in the warmth
Found from the embrace of my lover you...

someday love will find you

Someday love will find you

And ask of where you’ve been

You in your motion picture

Might call it a magical thing

For those of you who stand there looking

It’s the worst kind of sin

With empty eyes

And jagged stares

You’ll pierce its heart

Bleed a voice

It won’t be the wounded love

The incessant cry might be yours

But then maybe

You’ll stay there soundless

Hard and numb

Whispery sorrows waiting to benumb

Feet will be heavy

Ground quick sand

You in the middle

Nothing to understand

Or it might be you

The happy and the creep

Standing there laughing

Calling it nature’s cheek

You the almighty

And god your meddling freak

Better off than that crazy one

Who walks back all the way

Finds love in the middle of the street one day

And traverses the path everyday

Passing by the ghettos

Where those waiting for love’s arrival stay

The crooked and the hungry

Pitiable in their own pathetic way

Tall will stand those who were widowed

By loves helpless way

In eyes of others

Calling for love to show up again

Hoping in the deadened night

Of comfort brought by his arms

Questions crossing thy fruitless brain

When loving will call upon

Which one would you choose to play?

Sitting in the dark

you look at me

as I wander on

along the lonely street,

Shadows of the moon

follow me

as they make me detest certainity;

Half a penny

is my time's worth

as empty dreams trouble me,

The trees they sway

to a tune unknown

I follow it

even as I bemoan.

Your love

my loss

kindles in a smokey street

alone

where I walk

as if half in ecstasy...

My Night

Sullen skies of ecstasy
Distant from earth-
The ground
That holds me,
Thou I shall never see
For far from reality
You seem to be;

Oh! zephyr of midnight bliss
I refuse to let you
Caress me
For far from comfort
I shall always be;

Twinkling stars
Of hope you speak
Shielding sorrow
Swathe me
For far from sight
Does hope gleam;

“My” moon
You were once to me
Now a distant foe
You seem to be,
You bring with you
Your friend the night
Whose darkness imbibes me
For far from dreams
I seem to be...

Deja Vu

In the distance

When the moon sings

Of earthly ballads

In crimson tones

And across the hill

When a bird flies

Over the fears

Of mortal souls

I dance

To a whispery tone

With a deep caress

Of your ever lasting hold

I sway

To the rhythm divine

In an exquisite

Rendezvous

A meeting

Which I have already borne

In a day

I have lived before.

Prose

When i look at you
I see me through-
a weakened soul
of blithering blues
a shrunken spirit
of darkened hues
a naked body
with nothing to lose;

The flight
of thy worldly garb
shows the plight
of this lonesome bard.

Memoir

Misnomer:

fearsome devil;

misunderstood antagonistic hermit.

P.S: I would like you to do the same- Saurabh Jain, Shakir Hasnain, Bobby(skullbolt), purple deepens, anyone who is finding this intriguing.

Where did you go my little one?
My wonder princess tonight.

Do not wander way too far,
To the doting wolf’s delight.



Where did you go my little one?
My angel heart are you alright?

Come back my dear one,
I wish to see you this night.



Do you know my princess prized?
I have come this day.

Don’t walk on home
Look back where I sit apprised.



Do you know my princess prized?
I love you so much I couldn’t say.

You were there
Where I sit all alone hypnotized.



Your whispery tone,
How should I hear it again?

Do you talk while I bemoan
And laugh at that dead man’s grave?



Your whispery tone
It says you have forgotten me.

I am your keep
your prison mate


I saw you sitting by the dead man’s grave
Your prison
Your quest
Your place.

You’ve left the bench on which I sate
Wandering again to your dead man’s grave.

Suicide

Mercy
Showeth on thee
Blessed
You seemed to be
Suffocated
It’s the way you’ve come to be

Altruism
Your only sin
Deadly
One word for your wrong
Aloof
Thy worldly garb

Content
That’s what you were
Alone
The punishment you bemoan
Cold
Thy heart made of gold

Catch
Your last drawn breath
Escape
The intermediate fall
Sigh
End of your everlasting cry.

Day by day

from dusk till dawn

in dew sunshine or storm

this feeling grows in me

and keeps me warm

It should have been that of loss

made me forlorn

but this feeling in me

it keeps me warm

I might be reaching insanity

for what i seek

might not be true

but my heart doesn't believe that

even for seconds few

Such is this feeling in me

warmth it shall always be

Of what it is

i shall never know

a test

a phase

a path unknown

What was

is what is known

With this feeling of past known

future unknown

i listen to voices inside of me

This feeling in me says

it will bring us to we.

A Prayer

In my ecstasy

let me live

upon my hard wood mattress

may my body rest

while i count the stars

that i may not see

i shall then

all those carpenters forgive.

on the seesaw of sorrow

let me play

while i slide down

the banister of life

as much of dismay

i shall forgive your blows

even if in so

i am sent to slay.

upon the trees of a desert land

where a thousand cactus can only grow

let me jump from tree to tree

as i dream of a green grass land

which seems to be from doom so free.

it is then

that i shall forgive this land of thee'

where a thousand errors are noted on me.

Body and Soul

Stabbed

by thousand brunts

the heart lived on

with the aching soul

body

the sanctum of their

matrimonial home.

In their bliss

they subdued

the harsh cold

as the carcass

protected them

from mysteries of life

which would continually unfold.

The shell

made of human skin

was but a living throne

of their woes

which they together had borne.

Tattered and torn

the shed would leak

of torrential storm

but they contended

whether hay or sunshine

not caring of external form.

It was not

cement mortar or stone

human hide

was one of clay

living

yet not accustomed

to life's play.

The wake up call

"Wake up!

They said you're ok,

stop chasing those relentless dreams;

stop fooling yourself,

your nightmares will go away.

Wake up,

dont be a child

dont dream your life away,

live your life

its a one time thing,

dont pass it away.

Wake up,

the day is blessed

the night is over

you've had enough rest.

Wake up,

why wont you?

dont do this,

now is not the time-

dont joke this way.

wake up,

cant you hear me say?"

She's not listening ,

wake her up please-

GOD!

Dont do this to me!

"sorry miss,

we got it wrong-

she is long dead now,

there is no hope-

we should let her be."

Its you and me

Like a silent thought in memory,

you sit there where my heart keeps you warm-

forever in my dreams.

Its forever-

this feeling.

Like a mild breeze,

you remind me of the days

of beloved dreams,

etched in my heart-

my eyes cannot see,

but love it shall be.

Like a warm caress,

your memory keeps me safe,

wild dreams dont stand a chance;

Its forever as they say.

Like the rain on soil

you came close to me,

like the parched earth-

I imbibed you in me.

You are here forever now

as is this feeling in me;

You are here forever now

this barren land shall no longer seek.

Its only you and me.

One name

One name spells eternity,

the life of every dream,

swaying with the breeze

of meandering confusion

to survive every nightmare

of ever dwindling sleep.

One name stands tall

as proof

of the heart's longing

to continue beating

despite the everlasting distance

from then to now.

One name spells it all-

the reason for my being,

the existence which defies all meaning.

One name travels through time

in the chariot

of my heart's desires-

to continue the journey with me.

Tides

Lets drive away from oblivion,

see the sunset

while we stand on the shore

with the seemingly white sands.

Lets drive away from oblivion...

Shall we see it through?

Let us dive into the ocean,

taste the salty waters

and see what it brings us to.

Shall we see it through?

Come lets flow with the tides,

see the water gush away our sorrows-

follow relentless dreams

or take us to dimmed nights.

Come lets flow with the tides...

Love me the way you do

I need someone
to fill the voids that you have left behind.
Someone who would fill these empty spaces
with blocks of love and life.
The person who knows
not only how to heal the wounds
that he has inflicted,
but knows how to accept
the lesions left behind;

He who leaves the leafs of optimism,
not as shattered dreams on the grave
but as dreams-
to be replenished again;

Someone who knows this much
and so much more,
someone to love me
for a long way through...
Who would love me the way you do?

walk back home

someday i'll walk back home

under the ever grey clouds

i will jog- hop and skip.

pretend that its a nice day

as a warm breeze

would blow across my face

keep me cozy

on the dark dead end street

but i'll walk on,

dreaming of home

i will come

when im high

i'll come when im ok

its not today

not tomorrow

neither day after

it is but there

in my thoughts, dreams

even my fantasies.

dreams do come true

dont they?

i'll be home someday

i will be home someday

dreams do come true

dont they?

I am alright

i thought i was alright

as lost as i was

i thought i was alright

nothing could fit into place

but i was happy

i thought all was well

i thought i was alright

the world was revolving

and so was i

but i thought i was alright

torments never mattered

as i held my head high

i thought i was alright

nothing really mattered

neither the world nor i

i thought i was alright

i met you i laughed and i laughed some more

still i was alright

so much better than alright

i guess

i was happy

i saw me

i found you

i touched my low

i touched my high

i touched you

all was alright

and so was i

i needed a hand

i found another soul

my angel i said

i found my dream

i needed to cry

you held me tight

as you lay next to me

trying to push everything away

but i wouldn't stop

you knew what mattered was you

i needed you

you gave me comfort

you let me cry

you held me tight

i was ok

everything was alright

i guess

i was happy

remember that day

not so long ago

you held my hand

we walked through lonely streets

not so alone

i had you

you had me

i had everything

the dark corners didnt scare me anymore

maybe i didnt care no more

i held you

you held me

we had control

i was alright

i stand here sometimes

looking far far away

remembering a long lost summer afternoon

and the bus ride

you were so close

everything seemed alright

i stand here

every day

every night

every single moment of my life

trying not to think

trying not to recapitulate

every thing that felt so right

the days dont pass

and the night seems lonelinier still

i think i'm alright

sometimes i need to hear your voice

sometimes i need your touch

your arms

our talks

the way you smelled

deep into myself i just need to see

i can hear you still

smell the way you smelled

feel your touch

see you smile

or was that your grin?

i think i'm alright

you are with me

you are within me

and i'm happier still

i guess

i am alright